I want to take the time to thank the people who have looked out for me through all of this. Through the haze of depression and anxiety, it can be really easy to feel alone and abandoned. I've spent a lot of time hiding what was going on from people, and when I haven't been, I've been pretty temperamental and sensitive. I guess I'm still really scared and I'm responding to that by withdrawing and hiding. But so many people have stuck with me and grown with me regardless, and I really appreciate them for it. I understand that it isn't easy seeing me in a new way, when I've been Jessica and female in everybody's eyes for 19 years, but I'm so much happier than I ever was before. Even though I hate my body and I feel uncomfortable in my own skin, I feel like, for the first time, I'm being truly honest with myself and with the people that I love.
I don't know if I would have had the courage to keep going with this if it weren't for my friends and family. I am truly blessed to have you all in my life.
-JJ
PS: I do have a small update fashion wise. I finally got the eyebrow piercing that I've been waiting on for almost a year, and I couldn't be happier with it. I think that one way my piercings help me is that they allow me to take control of my body and make it look the way
I want to look. I'm hoping to get my cartilage pierced after my next show closes, but in the mean time, I'm happy staring at the area right above my eye every ten seconds.
PPS: (LOL PP :D) My research on binders has revealed that they're really f*cking expensive. If anyone would be willing to chip in a couple dollars to help me buy one, I'd be super grateful.
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